so sorry that it has been while since my last post and i don't have a lot of time right now the boyfriend moved in and its been a bit chaotic round here to say the least. i did want to say hi and let you know i'll do a major purge soon. have fun,,cheers s
my day began like usual..no problems with ice or snow. rolling to work on time..kicked total arse in a meeting today..ran my groups..saw my individual kids..all in all a pretty good day till i got to the office. for some reason..i have no clue why but when i booted up my puter...everything was gone..well all my stuff was. don't worry..i'm anything if organized and its backed up..so no worries there but all my favs..like 2 pages of awesome websites...i mean great sites where i can access free programs..topics i've been researching for months..wipped out..gone...disappeared. adios moo-chacho's...this sucks huge! i'll never be able to track them all down. frick!
but it gets worse..i just logged on to here for the first time today...looking foreword to reading The Unhappy Waitress...or Good Girl Goes Blog but all the blogs i'm following are..you guessed it...gone...what the heck is going on? i mean...did i contract some kind of virus that messes with my computers. is this some kinda sign that i spend to much time behind my desk? well stop it! "stomp" so now i must hunt my blogger friends down to. i hate technology sometimes. *huff and sigh"
it rained yesterday...it rained like the second flood was on its way...it was wet, soggy, cold, damp, slip splash slushy weather. and when you mix a day of rain with a night of below freezing temps..you get ice. duh?..so much for the science lesson. of course i didn't even think about that when i left the house at my usual time this morning..i did however realize rather quickly when i couldn't get my car door open. great! so i tug and pull and pound around the edges of the door..hoping it will dislodge some of the ice.."did i mention that i'm blond?" so eventually..but by pure persistence or blind luck it creaked open. "relief" i dump my stuff in the passenger side and "bang goes the door"..ha! not! when i should have heard a "bang" i heard a "thud" CRAP! not this again. "sigh" so off i go to struggle with the trunk to find a bungee cord. thank goodness it didn't take super human strength to get it open and i was back behind the wheel in no time...wrapping one end of the cord to the parking break and the other around the door handle "this is old hat for me" ..the only problem is that the cord has to stretch across my lap...leaving a rather big dent in my leg and making it go numb around the edges..but i must do what i must do...coz car doors are surprisingly heavy when going round corners.
now this strategy works quite well while i'm in the car..the difficult part is when i have to get out and leave the car. that in itself is a process. usually its undoing the bungee cord...sliding into the passenger side and attaching the cord again and locking the doors. you have no idea how hard it is to do this and not look like a complete idiot with my behind hanging outta the car. so i must say that i thanked my lucky starts when i got to timmie's for my usual addiction and the door actually latched..yay! "i hope i can get back in" which i did and the rest of the drive was uneventful and i could feel my leg..bonus.
i was really hoping when i started this blog that i would have tons of things to talk about..i do really have tons i guess i just don't wanna bore you to much and make you all leave but so far my days....other than a few "random adventures" really hasn't been what i would call..."blog worthy"
so i decided..to heck with all that and just be random..i can do random and besides..my boring day just might be considered exciting to others "ok..maybe if your under house arrest or a hermit you might find it worthy of a 4 1/2 star rating" but i said i would blog..so blog i will do...even if it only serves to make you a little crazier :)
so let me think...what has happened over the last few days...hmmmmmm well let's go back to friday..it was a PD Day and i didn't have to work.."YAY! that's cause to celebrate in itself" i lazed around..watched movies..sorta slept in. it was cool. picked up the boyfriend at the bus station at 10:00pm "hadn't seen boyfriend in a month..yes..a MONTH so i'm not going to tell you how the rest of the evening went..none of your business lol"
saturday...we did some running around..got the boyfriend a gym membership..it was quiet funny really. we went to the closest gym to where i live "soon to be where WE live...eek" to get the membership since its good for all of these particular gym locations in the city. plus..i wanted a new hat and its close to the mall. we were greeted by a short, stocky women about 30..who...seriously...had a handshake that could crush steel. even the boyfriend commented on it later as being quite powerful and he's no slouch "he's a big o'l manly man" :) "your welcome boyfriend" her name was marney and she..by far was the perkiest person i've met in awhile..she even put my "perkiness" to the test and i'm perky! now boyfriend and i being who we are "outgoing and friendly" it didn't take long before we had a nice little three way banter thing goin on..boyfriend would bemoan about how i abused him and i would verbally berate his every statement...while marney interjected some wit in now and again to keep a steady balance of verbal sparing going on...."it was fun" so we lobbed the "sarcastic, perky and pun filled ball" around for the duration of signing the boyfriend up to willingly inflict pain upon himself each and every day...all for the low low price of 50 bucks a month "great deal huh?" anyway..things progressed just nicely..we dotted all the "i's" and crossed all the "t's" and were on our way....still bantering with marney as we walked out the door. fun was had by all and it was a pleasent experience considering what he was signing up for. here's where it gets kinda funny...we're on our way to the mall for item number 2 on our list of things to do when i realize that i have missed a call..diel up..check my messages and guess what? its marney...
"Oh hi sandra..its marney from "insert blah blah here" we were having so much fun..i didn't realize that we didn't get your payment..could you please call me back ASAP" laugh?...boy did i laugh. boyfriend is driving..looking at me like "what?"..so i tell him..he laughs and contemplates not going back "bad boyfriend" so i call marney back and we arrange a time when we'll go back and pay. "ok..that wasn't so funny..i guess you had to be there"
i bought a new hat
i went to work (part time job)
it snowed like crazy on sunday so we went for a walk downtown and had breakfast at the market..good food but OMG'ness it would never pass inspection "i try not to think about it" *shudder*
onward and workward....the last couple of days have been stressful..we're trying to wrap things up at work before christmas but i'm having some trouble nailing some people down "some i would really like to take a nail gun to" "ooooh that was violent PG 13 this baby" completing last minute paper work, booking meetings for january and finishing up groups and individual kids. add team christmas party..PD sessions and the boyfriend moving in..this weekend "eek again" its been pretty hairy. i just try to think of 2 weeks off..sleeping in...visiting friends and chillin at home "cleaning i mean, nothing calms me more than cleaning" speaking of cleaning..i better go do some. still have some purging to do before...."dare i say it again?" this weekend and the boyfriend moving in "eek X 3"
i'm cheesy...P-oh'ed...snarly and grumpy. stupid freakin insurance company! i got a letter in the mail yesterday..sorry to say your in NSF and we require you to make good while paying us a huge fee for the price of sending you this insulting letter. my first response was.."well maybe.." i haven't been the greatest at keeping track of my money. i really knuckled down since this summer..quote "the summer of hell" mainly coz i had to but because its about time i grew up in the area of my life. so anyway..i get upstairs, i turn on the puter, i look everything up and "Voila" everything is fine...their doh heads..everything came out as it should have. "so what's the problem?" i got on the horn..talked to those that i needed to talk to and all is good. or so i thought.
today is a PD day and of course i took this opportunity to sleep in...well about as much as i can anyway..sleeping in is not something i know how to do well. so when the phone rang long before i was ready to venture out of my warm bed and i saw the number i wasn't to impressed "i mean, didn't we get this all straightened out yesterday..let me sleep in darn you." it was the insurance company explaining that it wasn't a mistake they made from november..it was a mistake they made in SEPTEMBER! "excuse me? your tellin me this 3 months later?"
so now..just weeks before the most important..most expensive holiday of the year..they want their money and they want it now!...don't get me wrong..this is not going to break me..really not that big of a deal but its the point of the whole matter. its like when the gov't thinks you owe them money..you had better get it to them before your spit has time to dry on the stamp...but if they owe you money...you can spend months wrapped up in red tape, spend countless hours on the phone and your completely out of band aids to cover up all the paper cuts you get from filling out forms. what a pain in the arse!
anyway..that's my rant. i think i'll go clean now..boyfriend is coming to see me this weekend and while he will learn soon enough how messy i can be..he's not going to find out now lol have a great day people..chat with ya later.
everyday my alarm goes off..i hit snooze a hundred times before i drag my ass outta bed to start my day...and everyday my cat is laying in the hall waiting to make sure that i'm actually up and runs off to his food dish to eat every last bit of food that is left. his behaviour in the morning has become so predictable that i now know every single movement..where he will lay down and how many times he will get up and run to his dish the second i twitch. you see..my cat is fat, some people actually just call him fat cat instead of his name. he is fat and he is lazy. he thinks about nothing but food..and being petted and rubbed and loved...to which he will promptly begin to drool on you, cover you with hair and possibly try to suck on your arm. he will drive you insane with his tricks and antics to obtain more food and repay you with a stinky dump in the hall closet "my litter is kept in there, which is killer when your putting on your coat..ewww" but i love him..he's cute and cuddly and has such personality that you can't help but love him. everyone does...minus the fur coat everyone leaves with. i'd really miss him if he was gone. "sigh" i think i'll go give him a snack now..and maybe a little hug.
so i realized something about myself today..i'm not to sure on how i feel about it..jury is still out but i wanted to share...and well..that's what you guys are for..right?
i had caseload update with my team leader today, we meet every couple of weeks to go over the referrals i have, what stage of the process i'm in, what i'm doing with the people etc. its also a good time to chat about issues i may have, concerns....that sorta thing. so anyway i have a referral for a large group..and this group is..let's just say immature and outta control. the group leader is having some difficulty getting the group focused. cryptic i know but i can't have my stalker knowing to much about me. to much info just sends him into a frenzy and than its changing phone numbers and moving and alot of hassle "you do know i'm kidding..right?"
anyway...so i'm putting this whole program together and i'm excited about it. i like to individualize my programs to fit the need rather than just grabbing any old thing off the shelf. so my team leader takes a look at it and asks me "what will these people get out of it at the end of this lesson?" and you know what? i couldn't really answer her. i had crammed so much stuff into the lesson that i didn't know what its primary objective was anymore. so i started listing all the things i thought the lesson would provide..which was a very long list and she stopped me and asked me another question "what is the target behaviour you want to change?" simple enough question considering that's what i do for a career..but no..not simple. i realized that i was trying to teach these people too much..all at once. i was trying to rebuild these people..change the way they think on so many levels i lost sight of what i really wanted to accomplish.
boyfriend and i had a discussion the other night that is kinda along the same lines. i have the opinion that the big picture is made up of small things..boyfriend thinks that the big picture is just that..the big picture. now at the time i disagreed 100% but now i'm not so sure. i am not admitting to anything but today made me rethink my stand.
am i doing to my relationship, the same thing i'm doing to my work? trying to focus on a zillion different things at once and not getting anywhere? spending so much time worrying about all those little things that i can't control and trying to control them all at once and losing my mind in the process? could i be doing that? could i have lost sight of what it is i want to accomplish in the relationship? " now go easy on me boyfriend..this just might be a Revelation and i'm in a delicate state."
so as soon as that 100w light bulb went off in my head..i hopped right onto my email and sent my team leader a message...asking for help. and then as soon as the bulb blinked on again " it took abit longer to put it all tgether..i am blond ya know>" i decided to write this blog coz boyfriend is at work and it would be to much to text and i know he'll read this on his way home coz he's one of my "fans" so boyfriend "and yes..you will always be referred to as boyfriend in my blogs." NO gloating..no i was right and you were wrong speeches...no nah nah's..no..you should just do what i say coz you know i'm always right stuff either...just remind me of this day when i start to back slide ok..coz you know it will happen and i'll go all cookoo and control freaky and try to micromanage everything to death. "which sometimes i'll need to do that coz i can't just do a 180 lol" ok? "big cheesy smile"
ok..ok know i haven't been around in awhile but i have a really good excuse..i swear...no..really i do. you see...i was visiting my friend dave the other day, met the new squeeze..i think she was his squeeze. maybe i need to clarify that one...don't wanna speak outta turn. hmmm. anyway..he is a movie fanatic. buys them..burns them..has thousands of'em..and well..since i was visiting anyway..i dove in head first and came up with 7 seasons of gilmore girls..some dane cook..will farrell and various others..plus..when i got home from work on friday i had received my "care" package from boyfriend containing the first season of True Blood and episodes 6 and 7 of season 3 of Dexter. "thank you boyfriend"
needless to say that i spent some good quality time this weekend with my comfy clothes, my "kiki""as my friends little girl would call it" and a very large pile of junk food. i did manage to tear myself away to go to work, clean my apt "well..sorta clean it, not my version of clean but close", and have some little people come visit me "namely, brian, tyler and mackenzie "she calls me sarwa" its so cute! gonna eat her with a spoon one day :)
so all in all it was a pretty good weekend. and now..its..back...to...work. ugh!
don't get me wrong..love my job...its just so slow right now "big sigh". its getting really close to xmas vacation so i'm not getting any referrals...the ones i have are wrapping up and i'm spending WAY to much time in the office. i'm not a sit still and wait kinda girl. i'm a mover and a shaker..wanna get right in there..get my hands dirty but alas..i must sit..and wait. "another big sigh"
ok..i finally figured it out. not the meaning of life or anything profound like that but i did figure out what to say about myself. this is me...i'm cute, funny, sweet, hyper, hyper organized, love to read, writte, do theatre, take beautiful photographs, clean my apartment, always gotta dress just different enough that you notice, blunt and honest, loves her boyfriend, likes to be home, snow, fresh towels and clean sheets, scary movies, funny movies, ok movies in general, texting, dancing in livingrooms, yoga, loves her cat..ok..i think thats enough for now..add more as i think of'em :)